I spent a lot of time this past Mother’s Day, thinking about what it means to your divine mother within when your relationship with your maternal mother in the 3D is conflicted. I have a complex relationship with my mother; we are not estranged, we are friendly, but she has toxic patterns. My maternal grandmother is ripe with toxic femininity, resulting in generational maternal karma on that side of my family. I’ve worked through the larger blocks pertaining to that generational karma, but the relationship with my maternal mother will exist throughout my adult life. ☾
So, how do you honor the divine mother in you, the divine feminine in you, and the divine mother in your maternal parent when that relationship is toxic or karmic? I’ve asked myself this. I’m sure others have, as well, because relationships with our immediate family are often karmic. I feel the need to draw boundaries but also respect and honor the divine in my mother, even if she’s too wounded to see it herself. ☾
The best that I have come up with is that you can honor the divine feminine and the divine mother by doing just that — honoring it. Creating space in your life for the evolved feminine and the divine mother, but consciously drawing boundaries against the toxic maternal energy that you are faced with in your 3D mother. I said a prayer and held a space for the divine maternal and the higher self, but I have drawn lines where I do not take the advice or input of my maternal mother. ☾
Do not get caught up or feel guilty surrounding the phrase, “Well, it’s your mom.” Yes. It is. But the divine feminine and the divine maternal is not toxic and never harms. You can acknowledge that energy while acknowledging that humans can and do, when they’re wounded, and you don’t owe anyone anything if their behavior is toxic to you.