I’ve been AWOL! Except, you can’t call it “absent without leave” because I absolutely granted myself leave. I was lucky enough to take off last week on a solo trip to Morocco, and the time spent on the other side of the world (completely alone) was time that gave me such valuable reflection into my relationship with myself and the universe. ☾
One of the things that I have always, always struggled with is a need for control. I don’t need to be in control of other people and it’s not “control” in the way that first comes to mind. But I absolutely feel the need to be in control of all of the aspects of my own life. This causes me to get anxiety over little things – like when there is a traffic jam or a train delay that makes me late. I even have had anxiety checking my luggage on flights because I can’t have it with me the whole time. ☾
I’ve taken solo trips before – it’s one of my favorite things – but the combined astrology from this past week with the solo trip gave me such good insights into myself. I set better boundaries with people in my life. I gave up control and surrendered myself to enjoy the ride. I spoke with the spirit of my grandmother. I bought gifts for the life partner I haven’t met in the 3D yet. I had long, romantic, late-night dinners by candlelight with just me and my thoughts. It was wonderful. ☾
It was refreshing and has already helped me identify where a lot of my control issues come from and why I feel the way that I do. I was able to surrender and go with the flow, with a childlike sense of adventure and develop a new level of respect and trust with MYSELF. I was privileged enough to go on a big trip to do this, but you can do this just in your own home and your own life. Surrender control for the things that you can’t change. Set your boundaries and put yourself first. Dine alone by candlelight and write love poems to yourself. It’s life changing.